Winter retreats at Camp were pretty awesome, as was the V-day party - Praise God! More and more I realize that I can do verrrry little on my own. Most of the time, I just ask God to take over so I don't mess anything up. Hopefully I can begin to do that even more.
You know, it's funny. We pride ourselves on being independent - why? Because the American way tells us that independence is the goal? Because we're told to be individuals and that it's all about me? Yet, it has been my experience that I need other people around to begin to understand better who I am as an individual. Isolation usually has a negative affect on people. For proof, do a google image search for "Romanian orphans."
I think a certain degree of independence is also necessary. A fully-functional person in their 40's who has never moved out of the parents' house will probably have some psychological issues - most people need to have that challenge and satisfaction of 'making it.' But believing that we can do all things on our own can be extremely harmful, too. I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me, but that's different. That's acknowledging a need for the strength of Someone else to rely on (as you do all things).
I think that, like most things in life, it all comes down to balance. Do you live a healthy balance of dependence/independence? Do you seek God's direction for most of the decisions in your life, then move ahead with confidence? Or do you pray fervently about what color socks you should wear every day? Maybe you're a maverick who doesn't consult God at all - why should He help you? Consider your current position on this matter.
Not sure where I'm going with this, but it is after midnight. I think I'll balance out the waking with some sleeping. They say it's good for you. :)
